my heart is broken. I have no idea what to do. I love my parents so much but I cannot begin to fix their ailments.
I don't even know what to say. I just know I need to write. I need to get something off my chest. I need to verbalize my feelings the best that I can for now...
I want my dad to feel better. If I could, I would take all his pain for him. I would do anything as long as it would give me more time with him.
All I want is good quality time with him. Why else would I wake up at 4:30 every morning if I didn't want that?
I love our time together in the mornings. I love spending afternoons with him on Monday and the weekends. I just want time. I want to pause time and spend as much as I can with my parents. I love them more than I could ever say. They are two of my best friends.
I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do.