I've written two extremely long blogs today that I can't post. I can't finish my thoughts.
I'm bouncing from subject to subject...
This has been my problem and my reason for not blogging.
I can't say how I really feel because people get hurt.
People can't let me voice my feelings without getting upset at something I say.
So therefore I stopped writing these things down.
I stopped blogging although I have a shit ton to say.
I have to try to rewrite things to make them politically correct or make sure I'm not going to hurt anyone's feelings... therefore when I try to write I can't handle it. I can't handle editing myself.
That's just ridiculous.
My blog was my outlet... now I don't have it.
Here's the gist:
I'm celebrating my 3 year wedding anniversary with my husband.
I'm still bipolar.
I harbor a lot of anger toward about 95% of my family on my dad's side (I'm not sure of the math, I just know that it's more people than not)
I'm still anxious.
I still have flashbacks.
My body still hurts.
I can't expand on any of these things because I can't focus. Hurrah mania!